i can totally tell why you would listen to this
but i'm fucked,
i can't tell you that
in any words that mean anything
this is supposed to be a rhythmic, poetic account
of what i mean
and it's not
but it's all i've got
i've lost it, maybe
i have nothing but blunt echoes of beauty
ie. i can't make my thoughts pretty
or intelligent
or cryptic
or any such derivative of the above
therefore
i am here
where no one will see me
i'm here
sad for this circumstance
understanding that it is
what
it
is
wish i knew for sure
sigh
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Thursday, February 21, 2008
poetry doesn't ask
look both ways before you cross
the loss
will be mine
if i don't, and i find
myself
(crushed by the impact of the lack of looking)
every last bit of me is like..
don't.
but every last bit of me
does
and it only is
if it ever was
i don't know why
though i choke on because
there are so many things that say no
like the places you don't go
the lack of a need to know
'cause i would...
but you don't
so i don't know..
but yes
passes a few tests
the stare, the words, the rest
all of it was there.. all of it made it's mess
and for what then,
if not meant
is it funny?
i just want to know
i just want to know
in a clearly formed sentence
with words
that sound like (but do not imitate) an answer
to a question
that i'm asking
i just want to know
the loss
will be mine
if i don't, and i find
myself
(crushed by the impact of the lack of looking)
every last bit of me is like..
don't.
but every last bit of me
does
and it only is
if it ever was
i don't know why
though i choke on because
there are so many things that say no
like the places you don't go
the lack of a need to know
'cause i would...
but you don't
so i don't know..
but yes
passes a few tests
the stare, the words, the rest
all of it was there.. all of it made it's mess
and for what then,
if not meant
is it funny?
i just want to know
i just want to know
in a clearly formed sentence
with words
that sound like (but do not imitate) an answer
to a question
that i'm asking
i just want to know
Saturday, February 2, 2008
try it, please...
i have no idea why.
i look,
and i think
why?
it baffles the mind
somehow
though i know,
it's perfectly insane.
insanely perfect
insane does not describe the complete utter imperfection
that is exactly
right
can insanity be right?
i've gone this route too many times
the 'it makes no sense therefore it must be REAL' route
and even that is irrelevant
one cannot fit a key into a lock
if they are not in possession of the right key.
even if i knew i had the right key,
for real,
do i do i do i....
would i still want to unlock this door?
who am i kidding.
yes
i look,
and i think
why?
it baffles the mind
somehow
though i know,
it's perfectly insane.
insanely perfect
insane does not describe the complete utter imperfection
that is exactly
right
can insanity be right?
i've gone this route too many times
the 'it makes no sense therefore it must be REAL' route
and even that is irrelevant
one cannot fit a key into a lock
if they are not in possession of the right key.
even if i knew i had the right key,
for real,
do i do i do i....
would i still want to unlock this door?
who am i kidding.
yes
Saturday, January 26, 2008
tangibly evident, sick
no idea,
my guts
wanting to spill
things
i
knew
nothing
about.
ok
....i may have known
something
about the rhythm of the last
whirlwind into
space
i don't i don't i don't i hear see taste imagine feel nothing
(i lie lie lie like the comfiest rug)
your cocoon holds no glow
(oh..crap ...what do i know...)
hmm. what do i KNOW.
a look
a sound
a taste, dammit, a taste
that sense
who wants to know all of that....what for.....
are you sure...??
(no)
my guts
wanting to spill
things
i
knew
nothing
about.
ok
....i may have known
something
about the rhythm of the last
whirlwind into
space
i don't i don't i don't i hear see taste imagine feel nothing
(i lie lie lie like the comfiest rug)
your cocoon holds no glow
(oh..crap ...what do i know...)
hmm. what do i KNOW.
a look
a sound
a taste, dammit, a taste
that sense
who wants to know all of that....what for.....
are you sure...??
(no)
Sunday, January 6, 2008
open sesame
i'm slamming doors.
i'm a lot of things, as everyone is.
me, firstly.
whether or not a person has a million things 'wrong' with them
or things people would not like in them
there is always something infinitely amazing within.
a reason
that person
is loved
and
a reason
that person
exists.
through the insanely long list of things i could say
of things i am sure no one loves me for
things i know are unlovable in every possible way,
somewhere in the thickly wooded forest
lies the sparkling jewel
i have always known
is me.
and whatever it is i am
is going to be enough
for someone
to find the key
and,
if it fits,
unlock the door
so fuck leaving it open
and trying to lure anyone in
i'm slamming doors
i'm a lot of things, as everyone is.
me, firstly.
whether or not a person has a million things 'wrong' with them
or things people would not like in them
there is always something infinitely amazing within.
a reason
that person
is loved
and
a reason
that person
exists.
through the insanely long list of things i could say
of things i am sure no one loves me for
things i know are unlovable in every possible way,
somewhere in the thickly wooded forest
lies the sparkling jewel
i have always known
is me.
and whatever it is i am
is going to be enough
for someone
to find the key
and,
if it fits,
unlock the door
so fuck leaving it open
and trying to lure anyone in
i'm slamming doors
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
bird's eye view
whatever it is you are full of
has completely intoxicated me
with a sense
of self
worth more than life itself.
oh wait
maybe it IS life itself
whether or not i
peeked in your door
(and viewed what your
dirty windows hide) without your consent
i just opened mine
thanks
:)
has completely intoxicated me
with a sense
of self
worth more than life itself.
oh wait
maybe it IS life itself
whether or not i
peeked in your door
(and viewed what your
dirty windows hide) without your consent
i just opened mine
thanks
:)
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