poetry doesn't ask

look both ways before you cross
the loss
will be mine
if i don't, and i find
myself
(crushed by the impact of the lack of looking)
every last bit of me is like..
don't.
but every last bit of me
does
and it only is
if it ever was
i don't know why
though i choke on because

there are so many things that say no
like the places you don't go
the lack of a need to know
'cause i would...
but you don't
so i don't know..

but yes
passes a few tests
the stare, the words, the rest
all of it was there.. all of it made it's mess
and for what then,
if not meant

is it funny?

i just want to know

i just want to know
in a clearly formed sentence
with words
that sound like (but do not imitate) an answer
to a question
that i'm asking

i just want to know